Your Loss

If you have experienced a miscarriage, pregnancy or infant loss, you may find comfort and deeper understanding in reading our words below. We offer action steps you can take at the bottom of this page. Thank you for engaging with us on a journey we all wish we did not have to take and a club we never wanted to join.

We welcome you to My Baby Angel Foundation, and express our deepest empathy for what you have gone through and are grieving. We experienced the loss of two of our grandchildren, at 22 weeks gestational age on June 18, 2008 and at 24 weeks gestational age on March 14, 2009. The loss of our granddaughter and grandson was devastating. These experiences were the hardest we have ever had to face in our life.

From the tears and the ashes of our sorrow and shattered dreams, we birthed My Baby Angel Foundation, bringing Awareness, Voice, Support and Remembrance to those touched by this unique loss. We are here to support you. Also, family members, friends, co-workers, and community that want to reach out and express their heartfelt regrets for your loss.

I once read a story about a Carnival Cruise with 4,500 people aboard that started out happily, filled with expectations of a fun vacation and relaxation. An unexpected engine fire started and left them with no electricity, no running water, no food, just the empty shell of a ship that had to be pulled to shore.

As a metaphor, I thought about how many of us enter the journey of pregnancy as a “happy cruise” with hopes, expectations and dreams of our pregnancy and finally getting to our destination with a healthy birth and baby. We didn’t think about the ship having problems or the passenger changing their mind and heading home. Lost in this sea of grief, we are looking for a tugboat to bring us back to shore.

My Story

The wave of shock that rolled through my body still echoes in my mind. My son called to tell me my granddaughter would be born soon and would not survive. It was the middle of the night (they were in another state)—dark & still, moaning and crying I prayed, rocking myself back and forth to somehow move the energy of pain flowing from my heart and soul. There was a cruel, sad story that was about to become mine, that I did not want to hear. Trauma had touched our family’s life in a way we had never known. Like the cruise ship that died in the deep, blue water, unable to move itself back to shore—I entered the sea of sorrow, endless tears for my son and his wife and the little girl I would never hold, play with or hear call me Grandma. Nine months later, at 24 weeks gestation the waters of life broke and our Grandson was born still. Branded into my heart was a profound love that had no beginning and will have no end.

It is here that we meet you. Understanding the deep sadness and pain you may be feeling at this time. Our hope is to help support you on this journey of finding your way back to shore. Here are the ways we hope to do that …

Ways We Can Support You through Your Shock & Trauma

These are some of the ways that we can support you. Pick one or all of them, it’s your choice and experience. We are here to help you navigate this difficult journey.

Support: We will listen to your story, create a sacred container for your grief and honor your experience. We are here to support you and your family through the process of integrating this horrific loss. Call Marika at 303-900-3792 or email her at for any of the following offerings:

  • Three free consulting sessions
  • Grandparent(s) of a Baby Angel Meet-up Group.
  • Never Forgotten Legacy of Love Program
  • Guidance in creating a ritual/ceremony to reflect your loss

Remembrance: We will introduce you to our “Never Forgotten Legacy of Love,” and show you how you can create a meaningful legacy for your baby angel.

Voice: Help family members, friends, and co-workers show their support.

Awareness: Approximately 1 in 4 Women suffers a pregnancy/infant loss. When you are ready, we will help connect you up to a  growing “baby loss” community so that you can feel supported and met by other women.

We invite you to reach out to our organization by contacting us. Grief takes time and is a process unique and individual to each person. Compassion for self, helps us feel compassion for others. Be patient with yourself. There is no easy way through this. We can help guide you in this unknown and painfully difficult territory.


Marika Baris,
Executive Director


Frederic Wiedemann, PhD
Board President